Kind of crap, but I freakin' love this big gay show.

Title: I'm Only Sleeping
Author: Erica
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't sue.
Pairing: Jay/Will, Tyler
Rating: PG
Summary: Tyler sees something he shouldn't have.

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Drabble. Rated PG for making out.

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I own Placebo's new album, Meds. Oh yes, it is good. Mmmm. "Meds," "Infa-Red," "Drag," and "Post Blue" are especially awesome. I don't know where I would rank it, mostly 'cause I never could rank any of their albums. I don't really have a favourite Placebo album - it depends on my mood. My subject, by the way, is from "In The Cold Light Of Morning."

So much love.

In other love news: I have all twelve Sharpie Minis. They are so awesome. You have no idea. Sharpie! On a keychain! OMG!

I received Gorillaz's Demon Days in the mail from BMG Music Club. Now I must cancel my membership. Mwahaha. I am an evil genius.

Tomorrow Mitch and I will watch This Is Spinal Tap. The poor boy hasn't seen it. He leads a sheltered life.

Holy shit have I been lazy. Hi.

I'm dating Daniel Jones! Yes, I'm in a sudden Savage Garden kick. It's funny, 'cause I've always been in love with Darren, but Mitch is totally Daniel. Tall, muscular in a lanky way, longish face, light hair, tan (it carried over from Class Afloat). Also, shoulder freckles. They not alike in the details though.

I'm so excited about finding one of my favourite SG slashers - I had searched for this website a year or so ago without luck. W00t. I have missed pr0n. A lot.

My hair is the most fabulous thing you will ever see, colour wise. It has a random smattering of emerald green! The dye is incredibly potent. There's still blue (wtf) washing out after a week. Whatever. I still kinda miss my mohawk. It was good times.

I am so totally out of the loop with music nowadays. I haven't been watching Fuse, because it's going the way of MTV into more television, less music. Bitches. There only seems to be rap and shitty emo. The Black Eyed Peas, I decree, must die for "My Humps" and The Pussycat Dolls for trying to sing.

The new Taking Back Sunday CD should be good. And, you know, PLACEBO OMG IN 13 DAYS EEEEE. I am excited. And I hate Europe and anyone else who has Placebo already.

I actually have an All-American Rejects fic sitting in my Big Gay Binder, but I've been too lazy to type it up. Will do that soon. Dunno why AAR, either.

3 Musketeers bars are the shit. Just sayin'.

feels_like_fire is the cutest thing in the world, so I must obey her and update. :P I got yer card!

What has been happening... I've been working out, despite being the laziest person in the world. Boo-yeah.

MITCH IS BACK OMGYAY. He got back on the 23rd technically, since it was past midnight. The beard was huge and 3-D and bright red. There was actual curls. It was lovely and gone after scissors and six complementary razors. We stayed up until 6 AM wandering the hotel in Vancouver, BC and then cuddling on a bed. Then he went to sleep and I did not. >.< Also didn't sleep the next night. I was more excited than I thought to have him back. I am the worst without sleep, but thankfully my mum brought my sleeping pills when we went to Oregon on Christmas Eve.

Christmas is always the best with the Peddicords (Mum's side), but I was mooning just a little bit for Mitch. The world is a better place because I have Dog Day Afternoon and the entire Tomorrow series - most apparently from libraries. *dies* Eeee. Mitch got me lots o' stuff, most notably perfume from France, astrological leather profiles in Italian (Toro = me, Cancro = him), and a sarong type thing that's become a small blanket/shawl because hell if I know how sarongs work. :P And a Playboy bunny ring from Senegal, wtf.

His mom made me a choker - she does leather work - that is truly gorgeous, and a totally awesome stocking made of elk and bunny. It makes me laugh, since I'm on PETA2's mailing list. She's never made Mitch a stocking, and they don't get excited about Christmas. It saddens me. She might have liked me more than her son, before I snapped at her - and apologised! Because I'm a good person girlfriend.

I really, really want to see Goblet of Fire on IMAX (btw, Harry Potter midnight showing, bitches!) then watch the Seattle Space Needle explode on New Years Eve. Mitch has been invited to a D&D party on the same night and... I dunno. I'm not going there alone, that's for sure.

It's rather funny, and no one wants to hear this, but both of our sex drives died while he was gone, but they came back with a fucking vengence after the first kiss. Hee.

Ich bin froh.

AHAHAHA. I love Everett. There's a porn store named Disney's Adult Video. More awesome though is Safeway's Berry Crackles with Crackles the Crack-Addled Squirrel. Does that not 0wn?

Um. I don't really want to make a post all about cereal. Soooo.

My psychiatrist wants me to "experiment" with Lithium. He used the word "experiment", which seems a bit weird to me. He's just kinda weird - he listed these terrible situations he assured me would happen that would make me depressed and then said by pairing Lamictal and Lithium he could control my emotions... kinda creepy. But I do so love to self-medicate. I will not be trying this new mind-numbing drug until after I'm done being productive by way of my current manic phase. I'm halfway through making a scrapbook for my German trip! I meant to do that in July! And I lyric!spammed my door! Not very productive, but it was fun and looks cool.

Now I'm going to put stickers in my car and watch Top Gun with meine Eltern. I feel the need for speed.

Anyone ever read Tomorrow When the War Began by John Marsden? I remembered this book and, lo and behold, it was in the library. I haven't read it since middle school! *cuddles* This series is amazing. It freaks me out so badly, makes me feel for the characters and their situation so well. I'm ridiculously excited to have found it. Now I just need the next one....

I already fangirled through e-mail at Mitch, and I can't do that about the same book twice. :)

My obsession with this song is partly because, omg, it could totally be All About the books. Also, I'm a complete whore for huge, dramatic drums (it sounds like marching) and John's scream. This song gives me goose-bumps.

I have decided, despite "I Don't Want This Anymore" with the ambient vocals that irk me so, I really do like Prepare To Be Wrong. I think the demo version of "It Never Gets Easier" ("Costello") was much better, but that's what I thought about "It's For The Best," and I slowly came to love the album version maybe more than the demo. What is the tune "With God On Our Side" played to? Does anyone even know wtf I'm talking about?

In other news: Lost is pissing me off. Show shit in order!

My computer was dying and now the computer dude says it's perfect again... I haven't decided. The grey screen of death reared its ugly head again, but that's so common now it's not so much worrying as VERY FUCKING ANNOYING.

Halloween? Trick-or-treating! You're never too old for candy. We're lazy fuckers, so we'll probably drive from house to house. *dies at the thought*

I was going to quote Monty Python and the Holy Grail, but too much effort.

Green Day post soon, I swear! I have until the wristband falls off!

Anyway, a favor: Someone, anyone, pimp an awesome techo/dance song. I'm in a pop and techno mood, and I need to make a mix! Pretty please? I have lots from Germany and... SoulDecision? NSYNC? Kandi's "Don't Think I'm Not" (<3)? Buh? The mix is trying to turn into an industrial one. Orgy and Nine Inch Nails, go away.

Also: Panic! At the Disco is teh awesomez. I'm a little slow.

I might be seeing The Rocky Horror Picture Show on Halloween. *is excited* I think it's played at Stanwood Cinema every year. <333!

I hung up on Mitch this morning because I thought he was my alarm. I didn't realise it was the wrong ringtone until my real alarm went off. I'm so fucking stupid. Then he was online after school, which was 11 PM his time, and I wasn't at home to chat with him on MSN. SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. So I bought Starburst jellybeans (his favourite) for when he gets back. They, um, expire? Next April, so we're cool.

Mitch asked me after beating around the bush forever if I'd like to live with him someday. I'm so happy. <333333. I don't know why he was so nervous, I'd already told him what kind of vacuum we would have had to have (how many haves can I stick in a sentence?). <3! <3! <3!

Leah's back and we've been doing crazy shit. Almost got eaten by imaginary hillbillies when we sortakinda got stuck in the mud while "off-roading." Hee. I almost got to see a drug deal go down! Never mind that it was a little weed exchange between friends - there would have been money involved! :P I'm so corrupted... only not really. Walton, when stoned, acts exactly like sober Walton. Goddamn hippies are the lamest people to be your first stoner sight. Leah, Lora, and I have taken provocative pictures on cop cars. Crazy hijinks have been ensuing.

There's a reason bread tags are different colours. That's the greatest thing I've learned in quite a while.

GRÜN TAG. (sorry)

My mom is wearing her Flogging Molly shirt, in case anyone forgot she's the greatest mom ever. I'm wearing my nekkid gay bar shirt... because nekkid gay stick figures are good times.

Um. UM. Mitch responded to my millions of e-mails, dunno how he has so much time on a computer. *cuddle* Is 50% really passing in Canada? Because that's awesome.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, seriously. Who was the crackwhore who posted the video for Computer Camp Love Song? Because it is both the greatest and worst thing I have ever seen. This is why I shouldn't let files I download just sit on my desktop forever. *dies*

School is totally kicking my ass, and I'm freaking out accordingly. >.<

I gave blood today because I like watching. My blood was really warm, but it cooled down quickly. :P It is indeed a good idea to have a decent lunch beforehand a opposed to, say, half a yogurt and a Fruit Roll-Up. I'd like to point out that I had a sandwich earlier as well. Bite me, mild sickness.

I listened to Nimrod on the way to school and Insomniac on the way home, and I've decided that Insomniac is much better car music.

( Top ten favourite GD songs )

Yes, I'm gearing up for GREEN DAY IN TWO DAYS OMG!1!! It's going to be fucking amazing.

If there's one thing I hate, it's having to use a different pen half way through a letter. It looks so tacky. Also, typos in pen. I mean, seriously, did I just misspell my own name? Christ. Still, naughty letters are so much fun. The sadistic part of me derives pleasure in the fact that Mitch probably can't masturbate nearly as much as he'd like to. >:) It's his own damn fault for running off to spend four months on a boat.

I'm so exhausted, despite sleeping for 15 hours last night. Mmmm.

Oh! Because I'm far too lazy to scan my own pic of Mitchell and stealing bandwidth is fun: Yay. I swear it's impossible for him to not have totally random tan lines. *pets*

Whoo, Grün Tag (shut up) on Wednesday!1!! And then Serenity on Friday!1!! Omgz, best week evar.

I'm crying over a woman I barely knew, chatted with a couple times, but appreciated her for everything she had done all the same. Oh my god. My jaw literally dropped when I read the post in the RPG I'm in.

Oh my god.

Just watched Death To Smoochy and was reminded why Mitch thinks I'd run off with Edward Norton if I had the chance (I keep explaining that I would never run off - sharing is caring!).

( Mmmm )

Is anyone else hornier during their period? Hey, I'm pic!spamming sex, I'm allowed a little TMI.

... He kinda looks like Billy Boyd. Hrm. All my actor concubines look vaguely alike.

( Live Tyler/Drew Barrymore? )

Oh, dude. hand_fetish. *humps* I'm All About the hand/wrist/veins in that area. Poor Mitch knows of my love for veins.

Hand porn kind of leads to smoking porn. Someday I will make a cancer stick pic!spam, with the obligatory SMOKING IS BAD, YO warning. I'd never smoke, anyway.

Provocateuse is love.

Mitch just called, and we got to actually speak. He's about to get on a train to some other place in Spain. I got more excited than him, because trains are awesome. Knowing what's going on is awesome. Hearing his voice is awesome.

He won't ask me the goddamn question he wants to ask. This is hard to explain because he's being purposely vague. Ass. He knows I'm going to obsess over it.

PS: I think John is whistling in this song. It's awesome (omg get me a thesaurus).

My LJ layout is called "Pink Punk." It's horrible, but I'm strangely in love with it. WTF. I don't even like pink.

I was so stressed yesterday, I couldn't stop crying. I'm losing it. Some of my issues are real, some are me just making it worse. I miss Mitch.

I took the day off from everything for a while. I woke up about once an hour last night to go pee. Seriously, I had no fucking clue my bladder was that big. I pissed the Mediterranean Sea. That, watching my phone obsessively because I will not miss another call from Mitch, and random cold sweats/over heating kept me from sleeping as much as I had planned.

I actually feel sick now, and look it. BAH. I started my period last night as well, and why is my body suddenly immune to any and all pain relievers? Except sweet, sweet Codeine (shhh) who helped me sleep.

Mum and I sat around for an hour at the walk-in clinic only to find out I'm short and I don't have strep throat. :/

I'm really excited about my present for Martin - a brand new vacuum! YES! I despise our vacuum.

You know how John's voice cracks during one of the no's in "Dignity And Money"? Yeah, that's why Straylight Run owns a bit of my soul. That is the sound of love. They cause such a deep joy in me and compliment my down moods quite nicely. I love how his voice was all "I just left a screamo band and now I have to sing?" in the demos, but on the album he can hit notes and most times without cracking! But my favourite parts are the cracking, so it's all good. Sogood.

I'm feeling okay right now. Mitch has written another letter and is just waiting for a place to send it, and he wrote a short e-mail that made me inexplicably comforted.

Sometimes I just can't explain
All the ways you devastate me
Always on my mind

ZORB. Zorb! Zorbzorbzorb. It's only, like, the greatest thing ever. OMG. And the only one in the US is in Austin. WTF, man? I'd rather go to the one in New Zealand.

Mwahaha. This is my new goal in life. To Zorb. They won't sell Zorbs to people because they suck, so I guess I can... h0r myself on reality television.

I am so sick in that incredibly lame/irritating stuffy-nose-no-breathing-allowed way. I'm snorting my own snot like it's cocaine. Sux0rz.

Some people in front of me decided to randomly stop while driving. If I had been any closer to the car in front of me, I would have rear-ended him. And if the giant fucking pickup with overly compensating GIANT TIRES OF DOOM had been any closer, I wouldn't be typing this because I would be crush like a bug. I burned rubber trying to stop, too. *sigh* I need new tires. And my brakes checked. And... oil change? I can't remember.

But that doesn't matter! Because I got Mitch's letter! It's wonderful, mostly because he wrote a letter so he could actually tell me stuff besides "French computers suck running out of time I love you" but with the a's replaced by q's. Those funny French people! German keyboards are a pain in the ass as well. Is there even a @ symbol? I had to copy and paste it to get into my mail, because I couldn't find one.

Let's see. He's trying to start a Dungeons and Dragons club (*dies*), there's awful lot of painting to be done on the ship, somehow someone is playing country and his ears are bleeding, he's been on the upper square sail (*stares blankly*) during a goddamn storm, and his mad guitar skillz are improving. He's going to be a soulful singer/songwriter. :P In certain places I had to stare at words for a full minute; it's like he has seizures while writing which, okay, me too.

I <333 Straylight Run. Just sayin'.

I'm so tired. ;_;

( Musik meme from _b00 )

I'm really, really depressed. It's annoying, because I don't like being moody all the time and crying for no good reason. Or the constant worrying.

We hung Mitch's blanket that reeks of dog outside to air it out a couple days ago. Then, last night, the weather decided to go OMGWTFSTORM!1!! which was pretty awesome. I woke up at, like, 5 AM to thunder that sounded like bombs and infrequent flashes of light. So great. The bad news is that his blanket blew off the line and into the bushes where it was promptly dowsed in buckets of rain water. >.<

Martin somehow stuffed the bastard in the drier, which dried the parts on the outside but not the soggy middle. Another >.< So now it smells like wet, warmed over dog. I hung it on the door and attacked it with Febreeze - had to have used almost half the bottle! So much hate.

I'm not going to get him for Christmas, am I?

From beckzzz

Look at your LJ "interests" list. If you have fewer than 50 interests, pick every fifth one. If you have between fifty and seventy-five interests, pick every seventh one. If you have over seventy-five interests, pick every tenth one. If you have fewer than ten, pick all of 'em. List them on your LJ, and tell everyone exactly what it is about these things that interests you so much.

( Why am I a slave to the meme? )

That was boring. I need better interests.

Aunt Heather sent along the prettypretty picture of Mitch and I in the birthday card for Mum. Which reminded me that I need to make/buy a card for me mam. *worst daughter ever* And, fuck, Martin too. Why do their birthdays have to be within a week of each other?!

Mitchell sent me a letter from Spain-ish today. When will it arrive, I wonder?

Every version of this song except the original is sexy. Poor Depeche Mode... maybe that's why they're so emo. :P

I love my mood theme. I wanna finish it, but the LJ whore cannot be paid.

I don't usually PMS because my moods are always swinging on a swing set (<3 Relient K. socute), but dude. I'm extremely irritable right now and I don't know what to do. It's probably because a fucking fly kept landing on my face as I tried to sleep, and I have yet to kill it.

I have Rise Against playing obnoxiously loud. I want it louder, but I'm very aware that this is a residential area, and you can already hear it when standing on our porch. :/ We're farther away from the other houses than most, because we have a farm within a normal neighbourhood. Yeah, I know, wtf.

I want to go somewhere, but the places I would usually go aren't really optional. Mitch is gone and school's started, so I'm afraid someone will be at the elementary schools. I need somewhere really secluded where no one will bother me. And a portable stereo, because gas is rather expensive all of a sudden, so I don't want to waste it by leaving the car on for my stereo.

I'm so emo it hurts. *dies*

Rise Against has terrible lyrics. Why do I love them so, so much? For example, my (second, because omg Swing Life Away!1!!) favourite song:

( Paper Wings )

You know what's awesome? OK Go's mad dancing skillz.

I wrote a page long letter to Mitch about how this letter had to be quick because his mom only gave me a night to write it. *laaaame* So now we have mailing addresses! And I probably fucked up! I told the mail lady it was going to Spain even though it's going to Azores, because Azores is owned by Spain. Same difference! *headdeskxinfinity* She wrote Spain on it so the mailers don't get confused.

Suuuuuuuck.